Love

Love...Oh im a huge fan of love...wanted to be in love eversince I remember...love it...hate it...Love is one thing u cant live without.
I have wasted 29 glorious years in its quest....a decade of my prime youth...and guess wat life had taught me?
to be loved is one big thirst...one big hunger....not essentially quenched...but on the last day when I go into the arms of Jesus all the brokenness and unloved hunger will be quenched forever.

But what abt the part of loving??...if I dont love, bearing grudge and being vengeful....being depressed and not even trying...on the last day I will look back and repent..I have not loved...I should have loved...oh why dint I love???


 Essentially to love is more important in our journey than being loved. That's why we were put here in the first place,to do our part , small or big with great love.

So Loved...

Its late in the  night,a strange craving sets in, I need to eat coffee flavoured cake, and I tell my husband loving as he is, he sheepishly looks at the time and disposes it. After a while I forget all about it, but God dint...next day we have a prayer meeting at our house and someone brings a yummy big coffee cake.....as I bite a slice of it I knew who has arranged  this..and I feel overwhelmed and teary,blushing deeply. How can He? so big and mighty take care of every little need of mine?

But he does it, again and again.... I heard so many similar stories where he fulfils our needs by his abundance.
¹⁹ And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:29 


From a saint like mother Teresa who'se needs were nobler,to feed and clothe the poor,  to a lowly sinner like me, whose needs is rather self contained to have a piece of cake, he works mysteriously in providing for us.

I noticed this attention and care  frequently after I fell in love with him  in school. But it was an on off relationship I had with God....sometimes it was at its peak,with all my devotion fixed in him enjoying the intoxication of the holy spirit, sometimes I was rude and aloof,refusing to spend time with him since I had so much else to do. but he has been a faithful God...in my happiness and in my sorrows he had been there for me.He takes care of the tiniest details of my life.

17 The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17


We live with such unsatisfied longing for love, to love and be loved . That big need for love can never be satisfied by another human being, imperfect as we are created.Only the perfect love can quench us.

He is a caring God, observant of our needs, and grating it speedily.He jealously persues our hearts to fall in love with him and belong to him alone and no other.He schemes to make us fall in love with him....we go through rough times, we go through pain and heart breaks because he wants us to find true, lasting, fulfilling , real love in him.The love in the world is so hallow and imperfect and lacking, because that is how man was made.

"but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears."1 Cor 13:10

Wouldn't we all like to be loved this way...the choice is obvious...the choice is ours to make.God has already made up his mind.

To fall in love with God is the greatest romance; to seek Him the greatest adventure; to find Him, the greatest achievement. ~ Augustine of Hippo

A letter to Lil Joe

Jeremiah 1:5 - "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart"




Dear baby Joe,
Mommy wants to tell you , She loves you very much. I often wonder how you would be like? restless and busy like your brother or silent and sensible ? I often feel you moving around inside me,and a very busy boy you seem to be. I wish you to be healthy and intelligent, I bless you with all my heart...may you find favour of God and men, may you bring a smile to all you meet and may you make your parents and brother proud.
oh Joe hope you can understand all that I am writing to you...protected from the whole world, inside my womb, you lie assured...but its only a few more months for you to get ready to come out and rest in mommy's arms. don't you worry child, mommy will take care of you...and you will do fine. Daddy and Mitch are also waiting for you.You might be hearing their voices from inside....we all love you and are waiting for you.
Mommy wishes with all her heart that your first love be Jesus.And you always will find peace, assurance, and security in Jesus even when in time as years pass by the world  inflicts you with corruptness and life burdens you with problems.

lots of love and prayers
mommy
P.s. Tell Jesus to equip mummy with lots of grace to be the best mom to you and your brother.

Love of a child.

 I look across the kitchen counter,my toddler is busy eating grapes, all of a sudden the bowl just flies across the room and lands on the opposite end,with a loud bang."No mitch, ure not supposed to do that"I tell him firmly"please take it and give it to mommy".He grins, his angelic smile makes my heart all aflutter,as he runs to take the bowl,I say"good boy" reinforcing him .But without warning the bowl flies again and lands a few feet away with a  crash, it has chipped(even though the label said it can withstand tough handling)."Mittchhh...no, this is no way to behave" I am trying to control my frustration."You better come here, pick it up and give it to mommy....this is not a ball....this is a bowl,this is not for playing"  I try to explain, doubting if he had mistook the bowl for a toy.Yet knowing full well he had not, and is actually loving the crashing noise and my odd expressions and the negetive attention he is getting.Mich sports another grin his eyes very small and his neat row of rounded teeth flashing at me ,making me dizzy with an influx of maternal hormones."Look the bowl" he says innocently....I keep a straight face,"yes give io mummy now"he ran,his little feet thumbing on the floor, but before I could react, the bowl had hit my head and a throbbing pain gripped me."Mitchhhhhhh...I yelled" I got angry and irritated,soon mitch was sent to the laundry for a time out.He yelled and yammered in there, with so much pain in his voice that made me positively melt. But I had to subdue that feeling,I am his mother and its my duty to train him to have good behaviour.After a couple of minutes of battle between my brain and heart, my heart overpowered and conquored my reason...Mitch comes out running....tears are streaming from his eyes...he says "mommy and blabbers something in his baby tounge as I explain he is not to throw the bowl.He looks at me with total love , kisses me and says..."oooooh my baby" stroking my forehead . I am speechless and as I try to hold him close, he slips away singing his abc song loking for more mischief.It took him a quarter of a second to forgive and forget and find another joy.

Children are so  perfect beings....so totally lovable and with so much abundance of love that u are put to shame at akward moments when u lose your patience .The innocence, the power, the totality with which they love you makes you wonder where did you lost that child u were once.

In an adult scenario , responsible as we claim  to be,we seem to get frustrated ,cold, irritated or aloof after an episode of debate.We have so little of that infectious grins,free unrestricted expressions, and abundance of love that can be freely given at all times without inhibitions.Our love is so much measured, we feel we have so much little of that love that we are stingy to give it so abundantly to others.We don't forgive so easily, find it difficult to forget hurtful situations and afterwards we sulk and dwell on the issue instead of finding another joy and moving on.

That is why Jesus says: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven". Matthew 18.8