prayer for moms and babes

Dear lord Jesus  Christ,
bless all the moms and babes of this world ,that they might hold fast to you during all times,through joys, through tears, through difficulties and confusions.Open the hearts of the moms and babes to your love, peace, and fire of the holy spirit.Open the hearts of the moms to love, adore you and lean on you when situations are overwhelming.Open the hearts of the babes to your Words and everlasting love throuhg the counsel and encouragement of their parents. amen

great new looks evry day :)

...will I endure?

For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife,and the two will become one flesh.' So they are no longer two, but one.Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate."mark

I'm in a total fix....a fix im ashamed to share. my husband is planing to bring my in-laws home.he thinks it will be a great help...but i doubt it. but why am I getting panicky? that's so unchristian....!!!! thats precisely why i am ashamed.

My in-laws never liked me and sort of hate me too. Many times they have been rude and accusing. They primarily agreed to get me to marry only for the sake of the dowry money.(and I'm not exaggerating it). My hesitance in giving it for their purposes has made them to loath me so.They mostly maintain a polished behaviour in front of their son...but behind his back they are very rude to me.Often they find fault with every little thing I do.They have often said that they don't like me to live with their son and only if I go away from their family they will get peace.Much to my dismay they call me mentally sick at my face and to other people behind my back!!! There is reason for my panic and fear.The fear of saving my marriage.

What's the role of my dear husband in all this? Well he is lukewarm in his love to me...he neither hates me nor loves me fully...and making him try to understand what I feel , what they did to me, just makes him get angry at me for bringing up useless topics and talking bad about his parents... I swallow my tongue and retreat.Nothing remains to be said to someone who doesn't want to understand, who is prejudiced against me and who never consoles or builds up my esteem. I do love him...and always will no matter how he stabs my heart. Often I feel I could never get through to him if I'm not his blood.He loves his mom, dad, sis, sons ,cousins, ....but who am I to him? Just a odd addition to his life since some years . I'm not even a lover or friend i think...just a silly acquaintance he met and keeps meeting everyday.

People have asked us about issues in my family... I never doubted...unless he leaves me for another i will never walk away(even when I'm tempted too) I might stick on between accusations and hate.But what if the kick me out as they told me...What if they scheme to make my husband leave me?... I'm scared.

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. psalms 56:8

If only he loved me enough...if only i could share to him my feelings without hesitance ..if only he dint judged me for what i feel....but understood me...yet advised me of Godly conduct and encourage me to love...to support me at all times... Isn't it every girl's dream?

 I am obliged to love my in-laws by law...and I do .But living everyday in midst of a family that thinks me a stranger that's good to be disposed....with no support from anyone...not even from the man who by law is supposed to support me through thick and thin,is an uphill, period. I'm tempted like running away with my children to some place leaving their family blood and bonds at peace.but for the sake of the sacred institution of marriage...my husband and children.. I have to stand this test with faith and prayer.


GOD IS MY AID.God understands....and He knows even  what we think and do in secret.he knows my heart...and how I feel and how I felt .He is there for me always.He knows my husband's heart too. he judges no one...  He will bring peace, acceptance and love in our marriage that he planned from eternity.

WHY DOES NEGATIVITY SEEM INTELLIGENT ???

I came across a negative blog today. And it was creepy to the bones.she rambled on and on bluntly accusing,herself and others...not believing in anything.not believing in anyone...completely chaotic and suicidal.
Two things struck me when I read that blog .

Firstly...that how much audience that negativity attracted...The bluntness , cynicism and  mysterious abstractness in it almost looks very intelligent to the readers. It gradually sucks one into a abyss of bitterness yet one thinks its absolutely brilliant.How can goodness and innocence seem so less intelligent and insignificant is still beyond me.The world absorbs negativity with so much enthusiasm...and despises goodness, innocence,virtue, simplicity with much vigour.

Secondly it seemed apparent how much she needs God in her life.My heart wept for her and I wished desperately for her to feel the love of God.everyone needs to find God to be fulfilled am thankful I have faith to hold me near the awesome God.but what about the ones who don't have faith... don't know God... don't know what real love is....

Perhaps I would have been like her, if I dint have GOD.

Follow your heart.....and such crap.

I hear soul tearing romantic songs...Strumming on my emptiness ....resonating my loneliness .....and emphasizing the need to find the one that will make me complete .... I read romantic books that makes me long for such exquisite pleasures of love and life and freedom.

I see advertisements that takes promises me to make me more beautiful, persuasive gadgets which are said to make my life better...things I cannot be happy without ,or so "they" say .

The movies and the magazines and media everywhere go on and on about following your heart, doing what makes you happy(even if its a sin) ,buying things to make you fulfilled and seeking people to make you complete.All this seeking and longing and wanting for fulfilment and happiness???!!! This is the crap the satan sells to us today...the forbidden fruit he offered eve is sold today as an answer to all the emotional ,physical and spiritual emptiness .This fruit that nourishes the deep-rooted selfishness in us essentially would rob us of all true happiness .

 He(satan) was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies. John 8:44

Nothing and no one can make one complete or happy in the long run. Everything will fade away in time...hearts will be broken, things will rust away and the emptiness eventually comes back.Only thing that is steadfast in this perishing world is the love of God.

³⁸ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.Romans 8:38-39

Whatever life situation I am placed...is for a purpose.My heart should abide only in Christ,coz 
his love for me is abundant and endless and fulfilling.

FOLLOWING one's  HEART....would lead to chaos. ITS SELFISHNESS SOLD IN GLOSSY 

PACKET.I may yearn for things that I cannot afford or even want..I might meet people 
whom are like minded and would think might be a potential soul mate!!! And in this pursuit of 
following my selfish whims i cannot put at stake where I was placed. I have to bloom where i 
am planted. give in, give up ,nourish and bring up fruits in the life at present.

.The grass withers and the flower fades.   But the word of the Lord remains forever.”1 Peter 1:24

JESUS.....completes me.

JESUS.....makes my life better.

In JESUS.....i find freedom, fullfillment and happiness.