As usual we had conversations that went wild and followed the same pattern of hurt,withdrawal and numbness.I cried and that was a huge relief coz increasingly lately I had suspected my heart to have hardened, coz nothing he said would affect me...somewhere I had lost hope in him.Yet the very instance that i felt , what he thought of me(negative as it is) could actually make me cry was quite relieving. But I know all the while Jesus keeps my heart...so anyone or anything would have to go through him to reach me.
Strangely all cutting remarks made me feel immensely big....
when would we break free of these destructive patterns of blaming and hurt and instead of fighting each other would fight for each other???.....when will we stop being strangers...to be friends and more than that?
Jesus heal our marriage.Ressuruct it from the dead.
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