I know this mail finds you with much ardent love for me and my family.Lord this is a formal invitation to my family. Lord please come and abide...we need you here most urgently.We are in midst of a colourless, odourless,tasteless marriage.Everything seems to have gone numb, nothing is alive but my struggles to reach him.the only noise that can be heard is my low whimpers as a result of long hard crying , and a low click noise that's been haunting me from the first day of marriage.
lord I'm trying hard to keep our love burning...but I think he doesn't care.his priorities lie on his work he says. I find myself losing hope . I'm tired of crying alone, of sleeping alone,of doing chores alone, of talking to myself, dreaming a future myself,of being myself.The 4 walls enclose my struggles,my tears, my groans of despair without ever reaching anyone who cares or comforts. He sees me struggling but is stone faced.
I'm tired of waiting ,one thing after the other always comes by...new software's new hard wares new downloads, new installations, new research, or just plain *....this pattern goes on and on and on... I'm always kept on hold. on hold...and a creepy music that's being played as I wait are my babies crying..... my heart breaking ....my life wasting.
He is stone cold,nothing I say or do or touch or kiss reach him...its like he has lost himself beyond repair in a cyber world.Lord I beseech come and do a miracle. create wine.... I have put vases of tears...lord come and make our marriage a true wine....much joyful and getting stronger everyday.
I want love,joy laughter, peace,... take away the click click from my life.save us lord do a miracle.
love and prayers
L
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